july 28, 2005 .//. 4:58am
yeah i havent been on for a while..and yes my sleeping hours have been really messed up lately. hmm lets go back to friday ish? :O last friday. i had a dental appointment at 915. so i went to get my cleaning..then they took an xray...noticed a small infection at the bottom so i was schedul'd for a root canal on tuesday...went to sleep around 10 that day? O-o evening...went to see charlie n the chocolate facotry with bev, tammy, charles n rose. we arrived but rose came a bit late...so we then missed some of the trailers...its okay...the movie itself was pretty interesting...tim burton always puts a sad side to the main character...and its a happy ending twist..its pretty awesome :) i wanna make a costume for halloween :D:D! hahah that'd be awesome...they're currently sellin both types of glasses he wore in the movie. the black goggles he wore outside n the one durin the mike tv part (: haha i think they're 20ish..however im a lil tight on cash so i dunno what im to do actually hahaha..prolly wont be able to pick up season 2 of oc neither coming next month *sigh* anyway i'll talk about those probs later. after the movie, all of us went to BR for a quick drink n chillin segment :) we played a game with the chinese checkers board..it was pretty cool :D then i guess we headed home :)
saturday morning brian flew in from calgary to pay a visit..leaving 2morrow tho? o_o
saturday hmmmm...sunday? hmmm yea i got bad memory O_o
monday i went to jack darling with the group..o-O chilled..andy woke me up at 5ish to ask if i needed a ride or whatever...found out my grandma came back from china that day. so i didnt eat at home cuz i had plans o_o. we chilled at the park..i'll upload some photos onto my fotki later. so many flies, bees and wasps...pretty good day. we could see toronto from where we were standing. :) and it was a clear view..no smog (: haha!
tuesday i had my root canal. everyone said it was gonna be the most painful thing...everyone lied. HAHA maybe its cuz i have high pain tolerence? or i dunno but it was surely not painful. they were saying things like. omfg ur gettin a root canal? GOOD LUCK!!! etc etc...then it felt nothing more than gettin a filling or something...i think the most "painful" experience i had at the dentist is when i had to remove 4 teeth for my braces...and THAT wasnt much neither. they froze/numbed my mouth so i didnt feel anything. nor did i feel anything later :) anyways it took 15min and i gotta go back to see the doctor in september (: went to sleep around 230pm that day HAHA man im so crazy LOL shiny was making me laugh HAhahahaha! so good.
well what else have i been up to? nothing much really..im sorry to say that but yea its true..and its sad :P all ive been doing lately is either playing lineage 2 on a private server...or watching smallville. i started watching...on friday? went to borrow it off vargas. im on episode 13 of season 2? LOL hahaha im goin pretty slow but its okay :D hahaha yesterday i went to chill with garrett n alan at captains :) pretty fun night (:
so yea im in a messed up financial situation...only person i could run to was garrett n he happily helped me out with my problem and i thank him for that :) hopefully this gives me some time on what to do without having the bank take $$ from my account.
so melvy has nothin more to say...i sleep late...im awake when ur asleep and asleep when your awake. dinner is basically my breakfast now...i dunno im just not really thrilled on how things are going...hope i dont feel like this when the semester starts...haha i was probably saying the same thing EXACTLY one year ago...fucked HAHAH! whatever okay im gonna bizzounce :)

edit 5:31am
hmm just read a few of some of my buddies bloggx0rz. its quite funny...:T how we always judge ourselves the worst...never really givin ourselves possibly something we deserve...we tend to also tend to give out advice even YOU should listen to...its funny because most of the time...the advice i give to ppl...i should follow as well...and most of the time..i dont..what does that really show? im confused.
i feel a lil insecure...isolated...tho i kno im deliberately doing this myself...i feel as if im turning into a hermit LOL just like my older brother HOT FIRE!!! hahahahaha well its like this...honestly...im jobless...i have no money i have such a hard time handling money because theres so many things that interests me which either turn into obsessions...or an expensive hobby. and myself having saving problems :D!!! i virutally have no $$ to spend with ppl if they do go out..so yes i do miss out on some social gatherings...and eric...even tho u have been a lil nerve hurting these past few months...and do take note that im not going cuz im fustrated with things u do sometimes...u still are a friend of mine...and yes...i am sorry that i wont be able to attend ur birthday party coming up. haha i heard how many ppl are going...prolly gonna beat my last attendence huh :P haha. but yeah...seems ive been come a bit distant with some ppl because of this issue...and its hard these days...having fun without doing something than playing games or staying at home like im doing every single day. and well i'd like to make a public applogy to everyone who MIGHT of been wondering where ive disappeared off too. simply i just dont call people out because...i have no sugguestions that doesnt involve $$ and as of late...ive noticed that when/if ppl do ask what im up to..i usually turn the offer down to go chill because of things like these. and im just being honest..not like i dont wanna hang out or whatever. i fink last friday was my final day this summer...i was pushin it a lil but thats just me...
wow..what the random was that!? anyways o-o yeah...one more thing to get out of my system.
ever feel like...when something great comes into your life...something so small can just take it away just like that? *snaps* i mean..its like i have signed something with a curse that when if something comes up..that makes me happy...i remember about this "contract" thingy whatever it is....and it just stops me from going on...every single frickin time...something always comes up....ALWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (with wings) and whatever.
it never works out...i dwell to much in the past...
meh whatever i dont care if anyone understood what the fakk i said but i just had a sudden rush to write that.
/gg

nite